30 minutes biking: 9 miles
45 minutes running: 6 miles
15 minutes incline walk: 1 mile
30 minutes weight lifting: arms and abs
Total time: 2 hours!
Annddd then school work comes and bites me in the ass.
I don’t often talk about my recovery. More often than not, I’m recording the exercise for the day or what food I’ve eaten. But I’d like to take a moment to reflect on where I am, and some of the challenges I’m facing. The inner voice in unrelenting which makes progress rather difficult, but I manage to get by each day going through the motions with what I feel is positive (exercising and eating enough). My main difficulty is overcoming the rush of guilt that follows eating, whether it be an apple or a bowl of oatmeal, I can’t shake the feeling of shame. In the even that this could be triggering, I did not tag any eating disorder related terms, but even so, I hope this does not have a negative affect on anyone’s progress. I initially started this blog to find people like me, struggling, but it turned into something different. I thought it was better to stay completely positive, and to focus only on the fitness aspect of my daily routine. What I’ve come to realize, however, is that shoving this persistent voice under the rug is not doing myself any good. I am doing the best that I can, and I try to maintain a positive outlook, but at times I need to let my guard down and really allow for the raw emotions to come to the surface. Overcoming obstacles is not about ignoring them, but about facing them head-on with honesty and integrity. If I’m not honest with myself, I will never move forward in my life. Thanks to a wonderful support system, I no longer feel the need to hide beneath my inner struggles, but I still find it difficult to own up to my weaknesses as they stand. Hopefully, I can begin to let the wax coating of myself melt away and I will be free.
Completed a Warrior Dash this weekend! It was a blast! There were a lottt of people, so it was more of a ‘figure out a way to get around the mob’ than a dash, but it was still a great time. It just goes to show that everyone can participate in races, and have a ton of fun with it. There are the super intense athletes that take themselves very seriously (which is fine!) but I think it can be intimidating to people that are just starting on their journeys. What a better way to loosen everyone up than throwing in a mud pit, and a dozen other obstacles. It definitely wasn’t a tough work out, but it was a great time and fun to see all different kinds of people getting down in the mud :)
I had a long talk with myself yesterday on the treadmill about this very thing (in my head, of course). I wanted to stop, but then I realized I didn’t really know why. I was not overly uncomfortable or in pain, and I had the time to do it so I just kept going. It’s always a good feeling to know that you can overcome mental distractions.
so so true. It seems so obvious, but there have been times where I feel like I’ve failed, or have too much to do to get to my goal, but after working out every day I surpassed my goal in no time!
my life—well used to be, I need to get back into a yoga routine, it’s just expensive to go to a studio!
week one of school and I’ve been in the gym everyday. Already back into the routine, and it feels great! Once you start, you just can’t stop!